-I am healthier than I have ever been in my adult life
-I eat healthy almost unconsciously
-I usually choose to eat healthy when I have not so healthy choices. That feels good!
-If I don't eat "healthy" it is ok and I know this. My body actually thanks me when I don't. Fat and sugar are ok sometimes.
-I am smaller than I have been since I was in my early 20's
-Sometimes I will touch a body part or move and feel muscles. Can actually feel what has been hiding under all that fat.
-Health is important to me for once!! I think about it, I work for it, I want it.
-In one year and 6 months I have been sick ONCE!! ONCE!! Mentioned that in a previous post but that is crazy. It has nothing to do with no working with children anymore. I have only been out of the little kid classroom 6 months. Normal people who don't work with children get sick. I have NOT been sick and that is really cool!!
-I can do any exercise I want and it feels good. Not bad.
-I love to run in the rain or cold. NEVER ever saw that happening. I HATE cold and really hate wet cold but there is something motivating about making it through a 7 miles run in weather that most hate to even run to the mailbox in.
-I can run about 7 miles right now. Wow!!
-I can shop for clothes wherever I want!! The cutest clothes. It is so fun.
-I recently returned a sweater dress that was a size XL. I bought it because the brand runs small but the sweater was way too big when I got home. When I exchanged it, the lady behind the counter said, "Why did you buy a XL?? You are way to small for that!!" Wha....wha....what?? Love you lady!
-Last post: I do NOT need wide calf boots anymore. In fact, I can put on regular boots without unzipping them! Can wear them with the cute boots socks too. Yup!!
-Feet are smaller! I think old people shrink too though so this could be a bad thing....ha ha!
-Hair is back to "normal". Not fried anymore and not falling out at all! Survived that horror!!
-Made almost $300 selling the last bit of clothes and shoes on Ebay last week.
-I LOVE to cook and Pinterest has made it so fun and easy to find yummy high protein and healthy dishes!
-I have had several people tell me that I have inspired them and I motivate them. That is cool! I only did this for me. Nice to know others find it appealing.
-I have found myself to be really drawn to and motivated by other healthy people too. Several times I have gotten up and gone to run because a friend posted on Facebook that they ran that day. I have made a lot of new friends because we have the common interest of exercise, running or health. It is nice to share that common interest!
The Bad:
-I can eat anything I want. Anything.....so I have to be careful and not get back into bad habits.
-I eat more carbs now than I did 8 months ago. Bad habit I think. Easy to eat a few crackers to satisfy a craving and that is a bad habit. Before I would eat apples or edemame etc so I have to be really careful with this. Much easier to eat (get through the pouch) carbs too so that doesn't help.
-I do NOT eat enough and I know this. I am almost positive that is part of the reason I do not lose weight as odd as that sounds. I eat a few bites and stop when I am full. I'd rather drink coffee or tea all day anyway.
-People ANNOY me when I do eat something less healthy and they say....."I can't believe you'd eat that" or "Wow, you are going to eat that?". Same thing they do to fat people when they eat. I don't care what other people eat. I don't watch them eat. Really do not need anyone to question my eating.....period. I guarantee you I know more than the average person on health, nutrition, intake, and the research to support it all. I do not like being supervised when it eat. Grrrrrrrrr......
-I've gotten lazy about taking my vitamins. I love them and they taste yummy. Just not as good about doing it everyday like I was. Need to make this a PRIORITY......especially since I don't eat enough.
-I have gotten out of the habit of planning my meals, calculating my proteins, etc. I just choose something healthy or not so healthy and eat it. That isn't the best idea and something I really need to make a priority! Too many benefits not to.
-My body looks horrible without clothes. My thighs are the WORST. Even though I run A LOT the skin is very loose, bumpy, chunky, cellulite and I hate it!! HATE!! It doesn't match my size if that makes sense. My stomach skin is yuck too. Doc says I did a great job not losing weight too fast and working out but still crappy skin and body. Still need to lose a lot of inches on stomach. The skin is very soft and loose though. Boo!! There is still a roll and the incision sites are really chunky too if that makes sense (probably not....ha ha). I hate it!! I don't think there is hope for either without surgery once day.
-So clearly I still have body image issues. I think all women do but especially those of us who struggled with our weight. Even though my main goal was to be HEALTHY, it is frustrating to work out so hard and still hate your body.
-Exercise is still a struggle. I do not exercise as much as I should. Really harder on myself about that than I should be. Haven't gained a pound in a year and a half but feel guilty if I don't exercise every single day. I'm either super motivated or not. A lot of it depends on my schedule. I go through phases with it. Will either do it a lot, daily for weeks or not do it at all. I really only exercise and run to be stronger. Not to lose weight. I do feel guilty when I don't exercise. I need to be running every single day because I have several BIG races coming up.
-Because I can wear whatever I want, shop whereever I want and buy whatever I want; I have to be careful not to spend spend spend. It can get expensive and addicting!
-I had hoped to stop clenching my teeth so badly and have more normal "cycles" once I lost weight but that didn't happen. I am still breaking teeth in my sleep if I don't wear my mouth piece. Shattered a Crown last week. I'm not even stressed so guess it is just a bad habit now. A hormone regulating pill is finally helping me feel better monthly. That sucks because I didn't want to take any meds but I was on the verge of begging for a hysterectomy so the pill is a much better option! Had high hopes that weight loss would help with this so really disappointing. I am just old!
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