Holy Holiday Hell.......

Oh my gosh!  The holidays and my healthy lifestyle are not working well together.  I haven't gained any weight but haven't lost more than a pound or two off and on this week.  This holiday balance is hard. Harder than any holiday season ever but that is because I actually care what I eat and do now! On the positive side,  I am amazingly blessed to have my social life back for a change.  The past 5 years my teacher work and PhD demands really took a toll on my social life like it did my health.  I usually had to say no, or I can't or had to cancel last minute to holiday gathering and socials so I could focus on school work.  I am usually very sick by this time of year too.  NOT sick right now (fabulous) AND.....I have had a holiday "something" every single day or nite for the last week.  I have TWO tomorrow.  I am so happy to have this time with friends.  That is actually just as healthy for me emotionally as my "body" health.  So I am thankful!

Downside of all this celebrating is FOOD and NO EXERCISE.  Oh my gosh!!  I am surrounded by appetizers, snacks, comfort food and sugary treats at every single gathering.  I have done a great job maintaing portion control with my meals at the gatherings but I have also nibbled here and there on treats.  The good thing is that I really do just nibble but I feel horrible, full, and guilty after.  I think I am stressing more than I should.  I read the blogs or advice from others that says DO NOT even nibble on something unhealthy.  Actually, I do not think I am even supposed to look at it.  Looking at it is an automatic 5 pound gain I am sure!  Either way....it makes me feel horribly guilty.  Then I read other blogs or advice that says to just watch portions, get a little plate or take a nibble not a bite etc.  Still struggle emotionally with guilt either way.  I must be Catholic and not know it!

Tonight's party with my most favorite girls was pizza, salad and a "treat swap".  This is a pic of what came home with me tonight.  It doesn't even look yummy to me oddly.  I do love those Mexican Wedding Cookies though (shhhhhhh).  I will share with friends and neighbors but feel so guilty for even tasting some of this tonight.  I actually called my best guy friend from the car IN the driveway when I was leaving the party tonight to see if I could bring it all to him but he was at the GYM on the treadmill!  Oy Vey!!

I have read all the "tips" that say to eat before you go to a party or just don't eat while you are there.  Well, in the situations I have been in with my parties, it would be more than rude to not eat or the event was hours long and I had to eat something.  I need to do a better job of planning or packing snacks, drinks and meals to take with me.  Need to have things I keep in the car too. This is an issue and challenge.  My responsibility though.  Until I do it, I can't expect to make better choices in tight situations.  

All my parties have been at night as well which means no bootcamp since last week.  I need to come up with a Plan B workout.  The good news is that my last 2 parties are tomorrow.  I should be able to get it together after that.  I really really love Bootcamp!! Who knew??

Tomorrow is a new day......just happens to be a damn day in December!!